Weight: 238.4
Pounds Lost: 4.8
Friday, July 31, 2009
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Day 2: 24 hours on Medifast
Weight: 240.2
3 pounds lost
Wow, 3 pounds lost already...in one day. I've been trying to get into the 230's with little success the past 2 weeks and it looks like Medifast is going to get me there in a couple of days. Can I lose 20 pounds by day 31?
This time around, I am going to try to exercise at LEAST every other day, if not every day. I can walk outside or I can work out on my Wii Fit. We'll see the results I get with that. Maybe I should do both...the walking is great cardio and the step aerobics will tone my butt.
3 pounds lost
Wow, 3 pounds lost already...in one day. I've been trying to get into the 230's with little success the past 2 weeks and it looks like Medifast is going to get me there in a couple of days. Can I lose 20 pounds by day 31?
This time around, I am going to try to exercise at LEAST every other day, if not every day. I can walk outside or I can work out on my Wii Fit. We'll see the results I get with that. Maybe I should do both...the walking is great cardio and the step aerobics will tone my butt.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Back on Medifast...Many, many months later
So, I'm about to embark on round 2 of my Medifast journey.
Let's see, what has happened since I gave up my Medifast journey in August of 2008? I got down to around ~180, 185. Then, I went on a Disney vacation and was taking some time off from dieting. I gained back up to 195 in this process. Then, in October, we had a BIG surprise...I was pregnant with my second sweet daughter. This was a shock...people who know me know that I am a planner and having a surprise pregnancy was definitely not on my to-do list. I had planned to lose down to 160 before getting pregnant, but it obviously didn't happen.
Fast forward to today. I am 4 weeks postpartum. I gained ~65 pounds in this pregnancy, which was definitely better than the 100 I gained in my first pregnancy, but I started out 35 pounds heavier. Otherwise, the advantage I had in the gain during the pregnancy was essentially negated by where I started. And the weight has not come off as quickly after this pregnancy as I had more fluid gain in my last pregnancy. Thankfully, my daughter Emily came with no major problems and I did NOT develop preeclampsia this time. We had a scheduled C-section...yeah!
So, I start tomorrow on losing the weight. I'm right around 240 right now...will weigh officially tomorrow to assess the "damage". It's disheartening to think of starting over, but I'm just reminding myself that every journey is taken one step at a time. If I had never embarked on weight-loss journeys in the past, what path would I be on now? Would I be over 300 pounds? Over 400? A lot of people consider a diet a failure if you gain the weight back. But if you never TRIED to lose the weight, what would you become physically?
I've battled my weight my entire life. It's an exhausting war that I will never win. I just have to win as many battles as I can. I know what strangers think when they look at me. They think I'm lazy, that I've "given up", that I have no self control or self discipline. It's hard to walk into any place with mirrors. Even getting my hair done is agony right now. I get to see the looks that people will give a fat girl when there are beautiful, thin girls around. I get the "body check"...meaning, put down the Twinkies and hit the gym.
I've considered bariatric surgery...gastric bypass or Lap-band...but I just don't think that's for me. I may reconsider that at some point, but if I can lose this weight the old-fashioned way, that is by far the best thing for me.
All I can do is deal the hand I've been dealt today. I have to lay down goals that are attainable. So, here are my goals:
On Emily's first birthday (June 26, 2010...11 months from now):
1. I will weight in the 160s. This is a weight I can maintain and live with. If I choose to lose below that, fine, but if I decide 165 or 160 is my weight, great.
2. I will be able to run a 5K or 30 minutes straight. The program I plan to use is outlined here: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
3. I will be able to wear a size 12 (or smaller) pair of jeans. I will buy myself an awesome pair of expensive jeans to celebrate...Lucky's, anyone?
4. I will have a family portrait made at this time and will not complain about being in it.
So, I've got a challenge to face. I'm ready for it. My kids will not have the fat mom. I will not have trouble keeping up with my kids when we're playing outside. I will not shy away from pictures with my girls because I hate any picture with me in it.
My heart goes out to all of the other "fat girls" out there. I was at Lane Bryant the other day trying on a pair of jeans and I heard a conversation in the room next to me. A girl couldn't fit into her usual size and was crying because she had gained weight. She said, "I'm so fat...I just wish I could love myself when I'm this fat." Today, I'm saying that I love myself enough to do something about my fat. This is not what I want to be physically, so I'm doing something about it. Maybe I'm not a gym rat or a runner, but I'll have to try it to find out.
Wish me luck!
Let's see, what has happened since I gave up my Medifast journey in August of 2008? I got down to around ~180, 185. Then, I went on a Disney vacation and was taking some time off from dieting. I gained back up to 195 in this process. Then, in October, we had a BIG surprise...I was pregnant with my second sweet daughter. This was a shock...people who know me know that I am a planner and having a surprise pregnancy was definitely not on my to-do list. I had planned to lose down to 160 before getting pregnant, but it obviously didn't happen.
Fast forward to today. I am 4 weeks postpartum. I gained ~65 pounds in this pregnancy, which was definitely better than the 100 I gained in my first pregnancy, but I started out 35 pounds heavier. Otherwise, the advantage I had in the gain during the pregnancy was essentially negated by where I started. And the weight has not come off as quickly after this pregnancy as I had more fluid gain in my last pregnancy. Thankfully, my daughter Emily came with no major problems and I did NOT develop preeclampsia this time. We had a scheduled C-section...yeah!
So, I start tomorrow on losing the weight. I'm right around 240 right now...will weigh officially tomorrow to assess the "damage". It's disheartening to think of starting over, but I'm just reminding myself that every journey is taken one step at a time. If I had never embarked on weight-loss journeys in the past, what path would I be on now? Would I be over 300 pounds? Over 400? A lot of people consider a diet a failure if you gain the weight back. But if you never TRIED to lose the weight, what would you become physically?
I've battled my weight my entire life. It's an exhausting war that I will never win. I just have to win as many battles as I can. I know what strangers think when they look at me. They think I'm lazy, that I've "given up", that I have no self control or self discipline. It's hard to walk into any place with mirrors. Even getting my hair done is agony right now. I get to see the looks that people will give a fat girl when there are beautiful, thin girls around. I get the "body check"...meaning, put down the Twinkies and hit the gym.
I've considered bariatric surgery...gastric bypass or Lap-band...but I just don't think that's for me. I may reconsider that at some point, but if I can lose this weight the old-fashioned way, that is by far the best thing for me.
All I can do is deal the hand I've been dealt today. I have to lay down goals that are attainable. So, here are my goals:
On Emily's first birthday (June 26, 2010...11 months from now):
1. I will weight in the 160s. This is a weight I can maintain and live with. If I choose to lose below that, fine, but if I decide 165 or 160 is my weight, great.
2. I will be able to run a 5K or 30 minutes straight. The program I plan to use is outlined here: http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
3. I will be able to wear a size 12 (or smaller) pair of jeans. I will buy myself an awesome pair of expensive jeans to celebrate...Lucky's, anyone?
4. I will have a family portrait made at this time and will not complain about being in it.
So, I've got a challenge to face. I'm ready for it. My kids will not have the fat mom. I will not have trouble keeping up with my kids when we're playing outside. I will not shy away from pictures with my girls because I hate any picture with me in it.
My heart goes out to all of the other "fat girls" out there. I was at Lane Bryant the other day trying on a pair of jeans and I heard a conversation in the room next to me. A girl couldn't fit into her usual size and was crying because she had gained weight. She said, "I'm so fat...I just wish I could love myself when I'm this fat." Today, I'm saying that I love myself enough to do something about my fat. This is not what I want to be physically, so I'm doing something about it. Maybe I'm not a gym rat or a runner, but I'll have to try it to find out.
Wish me luck!
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